So I just read an article in Reader's Digest (yes, I read Reader's Digest AND I listen to talk radio...proving I am old). I could not agree more with this article. It's about the death of phone calls. I for one, welcome the death of phone calls. Yes, there are times that I need/want to talk on the phone, but in general I hate the phone!
I HATE TALKING ON THE PHONE!
There, I said it. I have said it before but I really mean it this time. I have been avoiding 2 friends lately that LOVE the phone. They can talk for hours on the phone. I cannot. It's terrible to ignore people like that but I really hate talking on the phone.
Could be WHAT we talk about on the phone. Whining, complaining, same old stories over and over, same old advice over and over, same old bullshit over and over. At least in person I can express my dismay at their predicaments and they can read on my face that I really have no desire to hear their shit over and over. Or maybe I can listen with a more sympathetic ear in person because of their facial expressions and body movements. Either way, talking on the phone sucks.
I call my mother on the phone, and some other relatives I guess. But in general, I avoid it at all costs. I would rather converse in person. Make plans with me via text or email, I will be there. And we can talk for hours...IN PERSON.
I guess that's the weird part for me. People I cannot stand talking on the phone with, I could spend hours talking to in person.
Thats it I guess. My birthday came and went. Andy got me some cute snoopy stuff. Jim gave me a gift certificate to get a manicure and pedicure. Andy's parents sent me some money. We are going out to dinner for lobster on Thursday with my mom and brother, and then out with my uncle and cousins for a fish fry on Friday. Our anniversary is Friday as well...11 years. Time flies. I don't even like talking to Andy on the phone really. Nothing to say except "I am on my way home...see ya in a few. Loveyabye."
I guess I just like face to face time. At least with texts and emails there isn't any weird silence when you don't know what to say. And if you don't have a response at least you buy yourself some time to find one. And its not a time waster. Sure I can multitask when I am on the phone but I like to give the caller undivided attention. So then I don't get anything done. I don't mind talking when I am driving...in fact that is usually when I call my mom.
Ok enough, point made.
The vitamins...actually I feel better. Still no motivation really but maybe it will come! Haha! Once I throw in some exercise maybe I will be a little more motivated.
Things to remember: free cinnamon sugar (cinnamon shug...as Hiller would say) from Auntie Anne's on my birthday, crying at what Andy wrote in my birthday card, 70+ birthday wishes on Facebook, feeling older but starting to feel better and excited for what the future holds. <3
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Saturday, October 22, 2011
vitamins and energy
So I started taking vitamins today. A multivitamin, b12 and d3. I am constantly tired, get headaches daily and in general just do not want to get out of bed. Some people would hear that and say I am depressed. Am I? Maybe I am. Once I get going I am ok...I just don't like to get going. No motivation at all. Hopefully the vitamins will help. And exercise...gotta do it! Been feeling really pudgy lately and I don't like it.
It was an OK week. Went to Tedeschi Trucks concert on Sunday and it was fabulous. She has such a fantastic voice. Work wasn't too bad either. We had a DM visit that I wasn't there for but apparently it went ok as well. I just want Christmas to be over. I hate the holidays. Maybe I would enjoy them if I didn't work retail. Hopefully someday I won't. The massage institute called me the other day about enrolling. Maybe that is my sign. I was thinking I could start in April. My niece graduates in June though and I really want to go so maybe I will put off starting until July. I still have to come up with $4k or get financed for it. And Andy needs to go to school...ugh. Why can't I just blink my eyes and be where I want to be and not have to go through the motions?
Found out Doug and the kids are coming for Thanksgiving. That is some of the best news I have heard in a long time! I can't wait until they all get here. I just want to hang out like the good old days but this time it will be even better because it will be with Nicole and not Jacquie! I miss Nicole. I wish I could talk to her more often but it just seems that we differ so much lately and either have nothing to say or bicker about what we do say because we have such different views on life. I am worried for her, I still think she is not over her grandmother's passing. I hope she can talk to someone who can help her. She calls me to vent sometimes and I try and offer her advice but it falls on deaf ears and she gets very defensive. Then I am sorry I tried to help at all.
My birthday is Monday and our anniversary is Friday. We are going to dinner to the lobster place on Thursday with my mom and brother, and then Friday we are going to Marotta's with my cousins and uncle. Nothing else planned really. I am off this weekend (today and tomorrow), work Monday and then I am off Tuesday and Wednesday. I would like to get the house in order but then I would have to have some motivation. Maybe I will? If the vitamins kick in.
At least I know I am not alone. My aunt was in town the last couple of days and I was talking to her about it too. Her husband is a doctor and he was the one who suggested the vitamins. She also feels the same...piles of paperwork not put away, don't feel like making dinner, don't feel like making phone calls, etc. And other people on facebook post similar things. It is depressing. I am 36 I shouldn't feel like this. Tired and drained. I don't even have kids for goodness sake! How do those people do it?
I wish I was financially stable and had a good career and had time to enjoy the little things in life, like weekends off, going for a walk, etc. If I was motivated I could maybe. These are the people I have talked about in previous posts...the people that complain about their life but never do anything about it and then seek pity about their predicaments. Is that me? God I hope not. I hate those people!
Change starts today! I need a change. I changed my hair color Friday...I need some new clothes...need to eat better, take vitamins and exercise...the change starts now.
Things to remember: great apple cider, fall leaves swirling in the cool fall air, everyone loving the new hair color, feeling re-energized, making beef bourguignon for Andy after a full day of hunting and feeling like he is the only part of my life I wouldn't change.
It was an OK week. Went to Tedeschi Trucks concert on Sunday and it was fabulous. She has such a fantastic voice. Work wasn't too bad either. We had a DM visit that I wasn't there for but apparently it went ok as well. I just want Christmas to be over. I hate the holidays. Maybe I would enjoy them if I didn't work retail. Hopefully someday I won't. The massage institute called me the other day about enrolling. Maybe that is my sign. I was thinking I could start in April. My niece graduates in June though and I really want to go so maybe I will put off starting until July. I still have to come up with $4k or get financed for it. And Andy needs to go to school...ugh. Why can't I just blink my eyes and be where I want to be and not have to go through the motions?
Found out Doug and the kids are coming for Thanksgiving. That is some of the best news I have heard in a long time! I can't wait until they all get here. I just want to hang out like the good old days but this time it will be even better because it will be with Nicole and not Jacquie! I miss Nicole. I wish I could talk to her more often but it just seems that we differ so much lately and either have nothing to say or bicker about what we do say because we have such different views on life. I am worried for her, I still think she is not over her grandmother's passing. I hope she can talk to someone who can help her. She calls me to vent sometimes and I try and offer her advice but it falls on deaf ears and she gets very defensive. Then I am sorry I tried to help at all.
My birthday is Monday and our anniversary is Friday. We are going to dinner to the lobster place on Thursday with my mom and brother, and then Friday we are going to Marotta's with my cousins and uncle. Nothing else planned really. I am off this weekend (today and tomorrow), work Monday and then I am off Tuesday and Wednesday. I would like to get the house in order but then I would have to have some motivation. Maybe I will? If the vitamins kick in.
At least I know I am not alone. My aunt was in town the last couple of days and I was talking to her about it too. Her husband is a doctor and he was the one who suggested the vitamins. She also feels the same...piles of paperwork not put away, don't feel like making dinner, don't feel like making phone calls, etc. And other people on facebook post similar things. It is depressing. I am 36 I shouldn't feel like this. Tired and drained. I don't even have kids for goodness sake! How do those people do it?
I wish I was financially stable and had a good career and had time to enjoy the little things in life, like weekends off, going for a walk, etc. If I was motivated I could maybe. These are the people I have talked about in previous posts...the people that complain about their life but never do anything about it and then seek pity about their predicaments. Is that me? God I hope not. I hate those people!
Change starts today! I need a change. I changed my hair color Friday...I need some new clothes...need to eat better, take vitamins and exercise...the change starts now.
Things to remember: great apple cider, fall leaves swirling in the cool fall air, everyone loving the new hair color, feeling re-energized, making beef bourguignon for Andy after a full day of hunting and feeling like he is the only part of my life I wouldn't change.
Monday, October 10, 2011
thinking positive
I really am a happy person but when I open this blog all I want to do is whine and complain. I hate whiners! So, think positive...
I need to start eating better so I am not so tired all the time. I know it is all because of my diet and sleeping patterns, etc. I need to get Andy to get me a treadmill! I need to start moving and exercising and get my metabolism moving!
We set Christmas stuff out at work and I usually dread it but I am actually looking forward to it. I certainly hope this is going to be a nice, quiet, simple and stress free holiday. I DO NOT want to exchange gifts this year. We say it every year and every year its some mad dash to get last minute gifts. If I do anything this year I want to do homemade gifts and if I am going to do that then I need to decide soon what they will be. I hope its a nice winter...its been a beautiful fall so far...I think it was 80 degrees today! I love it! I like when the weather gets cooler though and it is supposed to get cooler this weekend again. I love fall cooking...soups, stews, casseroles, etc. yum!
We are going to the Trucks Tedeschi concert this Sunday and I am really looking forward to it! It should be a nice time. I work til 2 so I was thinking maybe I would whip up a lasagna Saturday and Andy could put it in the oven Sunday afternoon and we could have the concert goers for dinner beforehand. You know me, the entertainer!
Nothing else really to report. One more day and then I am off Wednesday and then I work Thursday and am off Friday. Going out with the SHA girls next week to LaBellas for dinner. It will be nice to catch up! I haven't seen Karin since she moved back to Buffalo, Tiffany since it was snowing, and Lane since high school! And Nicole since she went to NC!
That is all that is on my mind right now I guess. I need to get motivated to do a lot of stuff...lose some weight, get info to go back to school, save money to go back to school...ugh! Overwhelming...
Things to remember: 80 degrees on Columbus Day...in Buffalo!!!
I need to start eating better so I am not so tired all the time. I know it is all because of my diet and sleeping patterns, etc. I need to get Andy to get me a treadmill! I need to start moving and exercising and get my metabolism moving!
We set Christmas stuff out at work and I usually dread it but I am actually looking forward to it. I certainly hope this is going to be a nice, quiet, simple and stress free holiday. I DO NOT want to exchange gifts this year. We say it every year and every year its some mad dash to get last minute gifts. If I do anything this year I want to do homemade gifts and if I am going to do that then I need to decide soon what they will be. I hope its a nice winter...its been a beautiful fall so far...I think it was 80 degrees today! I love it! I like when the weather gets cooler though and it is supposed to get cooler this weekend again. I love fall cooking...soups, stews, casseroles, etc. yum!
We are going to the Trucks Tedeschi concert this Sunday and I am really looking forward to it! It should be a nice time. I work til 2 so I was thinking maybe I would whip up a lasagna Saturday and Andy could put it in the oven Sunday afternoon and we could have the concert goers for dinner beforehand. You know me, the entertainer!
Nothing else really to report. One more day and then I am off Wednesday and then I work Thursday and am off Friday. Going out with the SHA girls next week to LaBellas for dinner. It will be nice to catch up! I haven't seen Karin since she moved back to Buffalo, Tiffany since it was snowing, and Lane since high school! And Nicole since she went to NC!
That is all that is on my mind right now I guess. I need to get motivated to do a lot of stuff...lose some weight, get info to go back to school, save money to go back to school...ugh! Overwhelming...
Things to remember: 80 degrees on Columbus Day...in Buffalo!!!
Friday, October 7, 2011
exhausted
So today was my day off. I got up at 6:30am to drive 80+ miles to help Allie move back to Amherst. I am exhausted! Every muscle in my body hurts.
As for the previous post that was deleted because my computer froze, I WAS going to say that some people really surprise me and come around...BUT give 'em a day and they will go right back to their old ways. Ugh! Whatever...I am done trying to support those people that are just going to do everything they can to make themselves miserable. They know they shouldn't make the decisions they make but they do anyway. Why? Because its easy? You are miserable with the guy, but get back together with him anyway. You know people are only telling you to do things that are going to benefit them and not you, but listen to them anyway. Keep doing the same things and getting the same results. Go ahead and be my guest but don't come crying to me when things never work out.
You would think I am a miserable bitch, but I hope I am not. I was bitchy yesterday. Just annoyed with people in general. I can't stand when people interrupt and overtalk you. Ugh!
On a good note it was a beautiful day and the move didn't take nearly as long as it could have. Done by 3:30 and home by 5ish. Best shower ever and a little nap, cleaned up the kitchen and Andy is still napping. He may be down for the night. I love how generous he is with his time. He does so much to help people and he may get annoyed just like me but he would do anything for a friend. One thing I do and always will love about him.
Oh what else to say...got new tires on the truck and the jeep so we are broke again. But we are set for the winter. The weather forecast is 70s and near 80 the next few days, a little dip into the 60s and some rain next week and then another warming trend for next weekend! Yes! I love when fall is like this. I am hoping for a mild fall and winter...not too much snow I hope! A little for effect on the holidays but then it can go.
Had a great dinner the other night with the family. Went to a new place on Lexington and Ashland called Vera Pizzeria. Fabulous drinks and great food and some much needed reconnnecting with the family. Its been over a month!
I guess that is all...working the weekend and looking forward to Trucks Tedeschi next Sunday. Birthday and anniversary coming up soon too!
Things to remember: Subs at Pat and Toms after the move and trying not to hear the score of the first hockey game of the season that we DVRd but we heard it anyway. Go Sabres!
As for the previous post that was deleted because my computer froze, I WAS going to say that some people really surprise me and come around...BUT give 'em a day and they will go right back to their old ways. Ugh! Whatever...I am done trying to support those people that are just going to do everything they can to make themselves miserable. They know they shouldn't make the decisions they make but they do anyway. Why? Because its easy? You are miserable with the guy, but get back together with him anyway. You know people are only telling you to do things that are going to benefit them and not you, but listen to them anyway. Keep doing the same things and getting the same results. Go ahead and be my guest but don't come crying to me when things never work out.
You would think I am a miserable bitch, but I hope I am not. I was bitchy yesterday. Just annoyed with people in general. I can't stand when people interrupt and overtalk you. Ugh!
On a good note it was a beautiful day and the move didn't take nearly as long as it could have. Done by 3:30 and home by 5ish. Best shower ever and a little nap, cleaned up the kitchen and Andy is still napping. He may be down for the night. I love how generous he is with his time. He does so much to help people and he may get annoyed just like me but he would do anything for a friend. One thing I do and always will love about him.
Oh what else to say...got new tires on the truck and the jeep so we are broke again. But we are set for the winter. The weather forecast is 70s and near 80 the next few days, a little dip into the 60s and some rain next week and then another warming trend for next weekend! Yes! I love when fall is like this. I am hoping for a mild fall and winter...not too much snow I hope! A little for effect on the holidays but then it can go.
Had a great dinner the other night with the family. Went to a new place on Lexington and Ashland called Vera Pizzeria. Fabulous drinks and great food and some much needed reconnnecting with the family. Its been over a month!
I guess that is all...working the weekend and looking forward to Trucks Tedeschi next Sunday. Birthday and anniversary coming up soon too!
Things to remember: Subs at Pat and Toms after the move and trying not to hear the score of the first hockey game of the season that we DVRd but we heard it anyway. Go Sabres!
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
some people really surprise me sometimes, motivation and other things
so my computer froze and I lost everything I wrote and now I am not motivated to write it again...hahaha
Seriously...I will write tomorrow
Things to remember...tortilla soup, chatting with Doug, fishes waving to me in the tank (hehehe)
Seriously...I will write tomorrow
Things to remember...tortilla soup, chatting with Doug, fishes waving to me in the tank (hehehe)
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