Haven't blogged in a while. Been feeling better I guess. Had a good time at Jack's First Communion party Saturday night after a grueling day at work...we were short $1097 on the quarter and managed to pull it out by $22. That was pressure! Its not a great bonus, but a few hundred dollars in a couple weeks and as a store we look good on paper...united to win!
In other career news I will be interviewing tomorrow for a position at the Boulevard mall store. It would be a temporary position as the comanager there for the summer, June thru September. Long and complicated but there is a store manager in Rochester going out on maternity leave and another in Buffalo who was diagnosed with breast cancer and they are doing some "growth assignments" and moving some people into different positions to cover those managers while they are out. It would be really nice to be at Boulevard for the summer. Closer, learn some things from different managers, try something new! Kind of excited and I hope it goes well...fingers crossed!
Andy was approved for another 13 weeks of unemployment so that is a relief...I just hope he is able to figure out what it is that he wants to do and I really hope it isn't collections. I don't know what I want him to do, but something different for sure!
I still am not motivated to do any form of working out at all and I get disgusted with myself and the way I look. I at least asked yesterday if the treadmill was plugged in. I can get at it now, maybe tomorrow. I know it will feel so good when I actually start moving...I just don't know why I can't get motivated? Tomorrow...
I had such plans for tomorrow too...forgetting it was opening of turkey season. And then I scheduled the interview. And then I told my mom I would stop by. I had such plans of sleeping in with Andy, maybe doing some cleaning, make a nice dinner, just relax with him. His back has been all contorted lately helping Brad move stuff, cleaning out the basement and its probably still out of whack since our trip to SC. I thought I could give him a nice back rub, we could have a nice dinner, watch some hockey, etc. But, instead he is getting up at 5am to shoot turkey, I am going to an interview at Boulevard at 10, then stopping to see my mom (who not only got an iphone, but also a new computer today), then Andy is helping Doug move some stuff before he goes to NC. I don't think we have the kids till Wednesday? Maybe we can do something with them Thursday night? I work Wednesday night and Paul's surgery is Friday...
I guess that is all. Been trying to connect with Nicole and haven't. She left me a message, I left her one, she left me one, I left her one...
Allie got a new job and was supposed to come over last Sunday but cancelled since she started Monday...left her a message too to wish her well this week and let her know we would see her soon.
Getting better at the phone thing but I still hate talking on the phone.
OK, getting tired. Going to watch the news, catch up on facebook and say goodnight.
Things to remember: being surprised that Andy commented on Doug's blog, but happy about it...fingers crossed for Boulevard, driving home in the rain, hopes for better days...for everyone
Monday, April 30, 2012
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
A better day
Not a great day but better. Still yucky outside but trying to keep the sun shining within. Off tomorrow so that helps. Plans to clean, which it looks like Andy has already started. I want less stuff and more space, but if I have less stuff shouldn't I need less space?
My boss gave her financial advisor my phone # and he called me today and left a message. I just don't know what to do...we need help with our finances but how can he help with no income? We need to improve our credit score and start saving but I just don't see how. I guess that is where he would come in. But I just don't see how he can help. We are stretched to the gills so where would he be able to get us to put more in savings for the future. Yet another reason I cannot fathom how people with kids do it. They say that the money just comes, or you just adjust but I can't even budget to fill the gas tank much less would I be able to afford diapers or day care. Geez was that the clock ticking or what? Ugh!
Haven't heard from the in-laws...they were in Savannah for a couple of days before FIL (father in law) starts chemo. Hope they had a good time.
My sister turns 51 today...can't wait until May 30th when we go to Florida!
Thats all I got now...maybe more later...
Things to remember: being happy that Andy did some cleaning and rearranging today so we can do more tomorrow and we already have a head start!
My boss gave her financial advisor my phone # and he called me today and left a message. I just don't know what to do...we need help with our finances but how can he help with no income? We need to improve our credit score and start saving but I just don't see how. I guess that is where he would come in. But I just don't see how he can help. We are stretched to the gills so where would he be able to get us to put more in savings for the future. Yet another reason I cannot fathom how people with kids do it. They say that the money just comes, or you just adjust but I can't even budget to fill the gas tank much less would I be able to afford diapers or day care. Geez was that the clock ticking or what? Ugh!
Haven't heard from the in-laws...they were in Savannah for a couple of days before FIL (father in law) starts chemo. Hope they had a good time.
My sister turns 51 today...can't wait until May 30th when we go to Florida!
Thats all I got now...maybe more later...
Things to remember: being happy that Andy did some cleaning and rearranging today so we can do more tomorrow and we already have a head start!
Monday, April 23, 2012
back to the grind
Well so much for new beginnings and blah blah blah...same old same old. I gotta get out of this rut! I hate everything today. Hate my house, hate my job, hate that we are broke, hate everything except Andy. I just want to wake up tomorrow to everything different. Keep the people but change everything else.
Tomorrow is a new day. Maybe today was just get back into the groove and tomorrow everything will look up. It snowed today, not cool. I hate snow too.
Ugh...maybe I am just tired? I just sit here and look around and I can't stand the way the house is always a mess. No matter how I clean, what I get rid of, how I rearrange...its always messy looking to me. I can't wait to move...maybe in a few years. Ugh.
And why can we never catch up on bills? Always behind. I would say Andy should get a job but honestly I am nervous for his unemployment to run out. I think he is making more on u/e than he will when he can get a job. Ugh! Is it ever going to end?
I prefer life on vacation...bills are non existent, no house to clean, just pure bliss of walking on the beach and fishing and spending time with Andy.
On a side note, I need to find out when chick-fil-a plans on opening in NY. I had it for the first time in SC and it was delicious!
So tomorrow...get home after work and start cleaning? Maybe? Start putting us on a budget? Maybe? Arrange the office so I can set up my treadmill and stop feeling fat and lazy? Maybe? Or veg out on the couch and watch hockey with Andy eating food that isn't healthy? Maybe? Ugh...I hate this rut!
Would a new job make me happy? A new place to live? More money? Less bills? Probably not...I would probably find something else to bitch about.
Tomorrow will be a happier blog...yes, think positive...it all starts with me...blah blah blah...
Things to remember: the snow that really wasn't, Andy so happy to get my moms car back in one piece and then the power seat breaks after he takes it to Delta Sonic, wearing flannel pjs wishing I was still in SC walking on the beach...note to self...retire near the ocean
Tomorrow is a new day. Maybe today was just get back into the groove and tomorrow everything will look up. It snowed today, not cool. I hate snow too.
Ugh...maybe I am just tired? I just sit here and look around and I can't stand the way the house is always a mess. No matter how I clean, what I get rid of, how I rearrange...its always messy looking to me. I can't wait to move...maybe in a few years. Ugh.
And why can we never catch up on bills? Always behind. I would say Andy should get a job but honestly I am nervous for his unemployment to run out. I think he is making more on u/e than he will when he can get a job. Ugh! Is it ever going to end?
I prefer life on vacation...bills are non existent, no house to clean, just pure bliss of walking on the beach and fishing and spending time with Andy.
On a side note, I need to find out when chick-fil-a plans on opening in NY. I had it for the first time in SC and it was delicious!
So tomorrow...get home after work and start cleaning? Maybe? Start putting us on a budget? Maybe? Arrange the office so I can set up my treadmill and stop feeling fat and lazy? Maybe? Or veg out on the couch and watch hockey with Andy eating food that isn't healthy? Maybe? Ugh...I hate this rut!
Would a new job make me happy? A new place to live? More money? Less bills? Probably not...I would probably find something else to bitch about.
Tomorrow will be a happier blog...yes, think positive...it all starts with me...blah blah blah...
Things to remember: the snow that really wasn't, Andy so happy to get my moms car back in one piece and then the power seat breaks after he takes it to Delta Sonic, wearing flannel pjs wishing I was still in SC walking on the beach...note to self...retire near the ocean
Sunday, April 22, 2012
It's been a while...
Well it sure has been a while hasn't it? I have been told I have not blogged enough...so here I am. I am just back from vacation and I feel refreshed...kind of. I have lots to do and hopefully tomorrow is a new day and I can do all the things I have been putting off for so long. Getting the house cleaned up and cleared out, starting to use my treadmill, planting (well planning) the garden (to plant after the snowfall tomorrow), looking forward to the next vacation, etc.
Where to start? I don't really know where the year has gone so far...its almost May and I feel like it was just Christmas. So much has happened I can't recap it all here. Doug moved here, I thought things were OK but they were far from it. Doug was moving back to NC and now he is staying. Ugh...I don't even know what to think anymore. I was so hopeful for the two of them (Doug and Nicole)...for Doug to move here with the kids and start a new life with her, with us...I am still hopeful but its definitely not what I envisioned. Its so hard...it shouldn't be so hard...I guess because there are a lot of other variables I don't quite understand. I just hope it works out and everyone ends up happy because that is all I ever wanted and all anyone really deserves. Especially the kids. They are resilient. I hope the most that they slowly drift away from their mother. Its terrible to say. I hope she cleans up her act and can someday be a real mom to them. But seriously? I have no optimism there. Too bad.
Vacation...driving 14 hours with Andy. Awesome. We took my moms car. Sirius XM radio, ipod connection...nice. Someday we will have money to get a nice car, right? I wonder sometimes.
It was nice to visit with the family, except for the fact that about 2 hours into our stay Andy's dad dropped the bomb on him that he has liver cancer. Fantastic. Explains why he quit drinking. He goes for his first treatment Wed, 4/25. He is not eligible for a transplant and the tumors are too large to remove so they are only doing chemo. My brother's cancer is only in the lung. He is scheduled to have his entire left lung removed on 5/4. Keeping my fingers crossed for both.
We did some walking on the beach, some fishing, went out to eat, went to the concert (Warren Haynes Band) and just had some nice family time. Andy didn't get to go fishing for catfish but he found out where to go and found out a little more about surf fishing so maybe we can do that the next time we go down there.
And now we are home...back to work tomorrow. Blah. I hope I can work for my cousins sooner than later. Right now, just looking forward to going to Florida May 30-June 6 for Alexis's graduation. I have never been to visit my sister with Andy so this should be fun. If my brother isn't back to work by then and my uncle doesn't go with us then maybe Paul can go in his place. That would be nice. It doesn't sound like he will need chemo and radiation if they remove the lung and all the cancer. Fingers crossed.
That's all I got. Oh, and Andy turned 40. Not exactly the birthday he dreamed of I am sure...driving 5 hours to Wytheville, VA and staying in a hotel overnight and driving 8 hours the next day. We had a jacuzzi suite so that was nice and relaxing...I wish we had one at home. We ate dinner late at Applebee's...not your dream dinner for your 40th but oh well. His present from me will be RUSH concert tickets for October...it will be around my birthday and our anniversary as well so maybe we can make a weekend out of it and get a hotel and just chill out even if it is in Buffalo...
Things to remember...walks on the beach, fishing off the pier, silence in the car, staying at the Fairfield Inn in Wytheville, VA, daydreaming of all the houses I would buy all over the world if I won the lottery...
Where to start? I don't really know where the year has gone so far...its almost May and I feel like it was just Christmas. So much has happened I can't recap it all here. Doug moved here, I thought things were OK but they were far from it. Doug was moving back to NC and now he is staying. Ugh...I don't even know what to think anymore. I was so hopeful for the two of them (Doug and Nicole)...for Doug to move here with the kids and start a new life with her, with us...I am still hopeful but its definitely not what I envisioned. Its so hard...it shouldn't be so hard...I guess because there are a lot of other variables I don't quite understand. I just hope it works out and everyone ends up happy because that is all I ever wanted and all anyone really deserves. Especially the kids. They are resilient. I hope the most that they slowly drift away from their mother. Its terrible to say. I hope she cleans up her act and can someday be a real mom to them. But seriously? I have no optimism there. Too bad.
Vacation...driving 14 hours with Andy. Awesome. We took my moms car. Sirius XM radio, ipod connection...nice. Someday we will have money to get a nice car, right? I wonder sometimes.
It was nice to visit with the family, except for the fact that about 2 hours into our stay Andy's dad dropped the bomb on him that he has liver cancer. Fantastic. Explains why he quit drinking. He goes for his first treatment Wed, 4/25. He is not eligible for a transplant and the tumors are too large to remove so they are only doing chemo. My brother's cancer is only in the lung. He is scheduled to have his entire left lung removed on 5/4. Keeping my fingers crossed for both.
We did some walking on the beach, some fishing, went out to eat, went to the concert (Warren Haynes Band) and just had some nice family time. Andy didn't get to go fishing for catfish but he found out where to go and found out a little more about surf fishing so maybe we can do that the next time we go down there.
And now we are home...back to work tomorrow. Blah. I hope I can work for my cousins sooner than later. Right now, just looking forward to going to Florida May 30-June 6 for Alexis's graduation. I have never been to visit my sister with Andy so this should be fun. If my brother isn't back to work by then and my uncle doesn't go with us then maybe Paul can go in his place. That would be nice. It doesn't sound like he will need chemo and radiation if they remove the lung and all the cancer. Fingers crossed.
That's all I got. Oh, and Andy turned 40. Not exactly the birthday he dreamed of I am sure...driving 5 hours to Wytheville, VA and staying in a hotel overnight and driving 8 hours the next day. We had a jacuzzi suite so that was nice and relaxing...I wish we had one at home. We ate dinner late at Applebee's...not your dream dinner for your 40th but oh well. His present from me will be RUSH concert tickets for October...it will be around my birthday and our anniversary as well so maybe we can make a weekend out of it and get a hotel and just chill out even if it is in Buffalo...
Things to remember...walks on the beach, fishing off the pier, silence in the car, staying at the Fairfield Inn in Wytheville, VA, daydreaming of all the houses I would buy all over the world if I won the lottery...
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