Hormones? Who knows!

So from the time I got in the car until almost all the way home, I cried tonight...and I will tell you why.

I get in the car and the first song I hear on 96.1 Delilah is Mr. Big "To be with you".  It was "our" song...me and Andy.  Let me tell you how it came to be our song:

Picture it, Amherst, 1991 (I crack myself up).  I am dating the guy next door (literally).  I am 16 and its June and school is out for the summer.  A bunch of us from the neighborhood decide to go to Putt Putt after dark.  Said boyfriend from next door is dissing me, and there is this tall blonde kid (his friend oddly enough) who spends the whole night trying to cheer me up.  I think this kid is annoying...I just wanna be bitchy!  But this kid makes me laugh.  And he is huge!  Like a big teddy bear.  Fast forward to the end of the summer.  I dump said boyfriend and start to have a relationship with the big blonde teddy bear and every time we are together this song comes on by Mr. Big and the lyrics hit home:

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
Wake up, who cares about
Little boys that talk too much

I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

Why be alone when we can be together baby?
You can make my life worthwhile
I can make you start to smile

So I hear this song and it makes me cry...happy tears.  20+ years together and he still wants to be with me and he still makes me smile.  And, oddly enough the #222 has been prevalent in our relationship from day 1 and I log onto blogger tonight and it says my page has had 222 views.  Coincidence, I think not.

Next song:  Mariah Carey "dreamlover".  Doug had a Mariah Carey dream the other day, I love the song, the words remind me of Doug and all he is longing for (that hopefully he has found), and reminds me that I have my own dreamlover too.  No tears just smiles and a promise to post and tag Doug when I get home.

Next song:  Celine Dion "the Heart will go on" or whatever its called from the movie "the Titanic".  It came out right after my dad passed away and I remember my mom saying she had to change the station when it would come on because she would think of my dad.  They had the relationship that Andy and I have.  They were married 30+ years and he was only 63 when he died.  My mom a widow at 62.  I usually change the station too.  Tonight I didn't.  I listened to every word and tears came out.  Happy and sad.  Happy that my mom has great memories, as do I.  Sad that even though they had so many years together they could have had so many more. 

So that was the tears...then I called my mom.  All is well.  She is picking my sister and niece and Joe up from the airport tomorrow and Alexis wants a Ted's hot dog for lunch, while Joe wants a beef on weck from Anderson's.  It's Joe's first time to Buffalo.  Luckily on Sheridan Dr. in Tonawanda they can score both right across from each other.  I have dinner with the girls after my last day working at McKinley and the plan is to go to David and Michael's afterward as they are having everyone for taco night.  And we discuss going to CT.  We all want to go except Alexis...so that probably means we are going!

One more day of work at McKinley, vacation for 7 days, family in town.  Life is good.

Things to remember:  that I should have done something with music because it inspires me